We also met Shelley at the Encinitas flea market and shopped around for a bit, buying some gorgeous jewelry and enjoying the sunshine and fresh air on the coast. This afternoon merged into this evening and Polly's family came over for dinner, which is just finishing up at the moment. I was sitting at the dinner table looking at my mom, watching her sit back and take in her surroundings, looking at her family in a way I've never seen her do before.
She seems a bit more quiet, observant, careful and thoughtful, and did a great job eating her very delicious corn and grilled shrimp. Since I have become mother Ali, I am constantly checking to see if she can eat just "one more bite," fill up her glass of sparkling water or vitamin water "one more time." I'm certain at this point my nagging is almost unbearable, but it all comes from a place of love.
I would say all in all my mom is really trying to take it easy. She has begun to come around (for the most part) and accept the fact that staying home and relaxed is the absolute, very best thing for right now. She must heal, and as this next chemo treatment comes around on Thursday, we pray the healing will begin to kick into high gear. The more harsh the chemo treatment, the more often she receives it, the more quickly her new tumors will supposedly begin to shrink and she can enjoy living a more pain free life.
It is interesting how my perspective changes as I see my family and my daily life through the eyes of my mom. I can feel her compassion, hear her strength, sense her positive attitude, and only attempt to emulate her courage. Mom, we love you. Thank you for spending the day with your sister and your daughters, we certainly cherish every single moment spent together, whether we are shopping, bickering, laughing, crying, listening, gossiping like a bunch of old hens, or singing at the top of our lungs to the latest country music.
I look forward to another wonderful, happy and healthy day tomorrow...and to all of you out there, your comments on the last blog were overwhelmingly kind and heartfelt. Every day that passes is made better due to the expressions from your hearts. Thank you again.
xoxo
Ali
Oh yes it was another great family weekend, what could be better. I count my blessings that we live so close and can spend so much time together, whether it's a family dinner, shopping and coffee with dad at the forum or just hanging out at your house. Every moment is precious to me. I love you so much and wish you the very best as you go for round two with chemo later this week. You can do it, after all you are Ariel, my sister, who can do whatever she sets her mind to. Keep up your strength and when you need us to be strong for you, we are here for you.
ReplyDeleteEnjoy your time with Shelley and good luck at school tomorrow Ali.
Love you lots and I will see you soon.
Polly